Hello.

IT’S ALMOST SUMMER

I cannot wait to get all of this responsibility and worry off of my shoulders for 3 months.

This has been one of the most tiring semesters for sure. Upper division courses make me want to work even harder, thus creating more stress for myself. In the end it will be worth it. Once I secure my spot in the graphic design program I am going to be so happy.

Art really challenges me to overcome my procrastination. I can’t just cram information in the day before and then fill in bubbles in a scantron and it’s over. It’s either you do it, or you get nothing. Time always must be managed and sometimes it takes awhile for inspiration or a good idea to come along. Sometimes I am glad that I had a tough experience in my first studio course because it made me want to work harder. I am very fortunate that I’ve had some teachers this semester that really care about our work and want to see us succeed in the program.

My goal this summer is to draw more. It’s been nearly a year since my last drawing class and I’m afraid I’m going to lose what I had practiced. Everything has been design since then, and it’s not giving me a chance to really draw. I pretty much tell myself this every summer that I’ll attempt to draw more, but I rarely ever stick to something to make an actual piece out of. This time I will try! Even if it’s just a tiny crappy sketch at least I did something.

Time to tackle an art history test and project tomorrow. One more week one more week.

I miss hanging out with Lauren, Tracey, and Vanessa.

We all just suddenly got too busy and couldn’t make time for each other anymore. 

I miss hanging out with the LB group too. We are like strangers now.

I’ve drifted away from so many people. I want to make plans but then I have the fear that I won’t be able to follow through because school or work will get in the way. I need to get over this and reconnect with some people. Why have I become so antisocial?! I’m too comfortable with the way things are now. 

wowow

I posted this Dexter’s Lab gif I found like two weeks ago, and it’s at 306 notes now.

Last night I posted this photo and woke up to it having 90 notes.

daaaaaaaayum. my email inbox is flooded.

LOL I JUST SPAZZED SO BAD AT THEIR ENCORE SONGS.

THIS HAS MADE ME REALIZE HOW LONG I HAVE LISTENED TO THEM.

…holy shit “Funeral” came out in 2004. That’s a hell of a long time ago. 

I don’t even wanna know what I’ll be like tomorrow watching The Strokes. They really make me happy. 

I want to go to a concert so bad.

I’m watching the live stream of coachella on youtube and it just makes me want to go even more! I’d love to see Lykke Li, The Strokes, Arcade Fire, Metric, Phoenix, Death Cab…anyone! I went to a bunch last year and it was fun (although expensive…) but I loved it.

ARCADE FIRE IS PLAYING ONE OF MY FAVORITE SONGS, WE USED TO WAIT. I JUST GOT CHILLS.

KMF is in two weeks but I honestly don’t know any songs from anyone, but it’ll bring the lulz and I’m going for my friend.

INSTEAD I WILL JUST WATCH WHAT PEOPLE PAID $300 TO SEE FOR FREE 2 HOURS AWAY FROM IT ON MY COMPUTER. butitisntthesame.

I’m worried.

It’s been so heartbreaking watching my cousin’s health decline over the past year. She has had to have major diet changes and cut out alcohol completely or else the consequences could be terrible. Her grades in college are suffering because of health problems and also in my opinion working too much, but she has to in order to continue living on her own. I feel almost guilty with how well I’ve been doing in college so far and my relatively good health… It’s also strange comparing the state of my immediate family to theirs… our biggest problem is communication while their is health problems. When we were all growing up things were so different. 

When she came into work today, she looked so extremely tired, and was saying how she could barely stand, concentrate, or get any school work done. It’s all due to changes in medication…and I’m not sure if things are improving. It seems like her energy is always depleted, like she’s not completely there like before. 

I was sad when I heard she would be living up north for a year with her husband, but now I think it’ll be good compared to her being the only income down here and being alone. Rent will be cheaper, and maybe she can make more money. It’s already weird not having him at work, and it’s going to be extra weird without her there. 

I’m just scared that one day things are going to turn for the worse. I hope it won’t. 

Creepycreepy.

It started off with me being at “work” and I put that in quotes because it looked nothing like my work, but I was carrying along business I like I would have anyway. There was this woman and her 3 kids and she wanted her medication for them. She started complaining to me about how her husband was so unsupportive & basically leaves her to take care of the kids. Soon enough, the husband came out of no where and I can’t remember what he said, I just remember him arguing with my uncle. Then my dream changed environments.

I was hanging out with my group of friends that I saw last night. - Ava, Nicole, Dorothy, Dennis and Jeffy. We went to my old house, the one in Fountain Valley, and hung out in my room which was a lot bigger than it is in reality. Then I had to use the restroom, and this is when things got weird. 

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This was my horoscope today (I never really read it lol) and I was freaking out all morning about my project not being good enough, and my teacher actually liked it. 

Last night I went out to dinner with my family for my Grandma’s birthday. All was going well, until we reached the end of our meal and all of a sudden my stomach was in a lot of pain. Actually, it wasn’t just my stomach but my entire insides were hurting. It felt the worst when I stood up and once I got home, I laid down for 30 minutes waiting for the pain to finally go away. Luckily it never came back for the remainder of the night and so far today has been fine. I don’t know what it was, and I never want to experience it again. 

The weather is insane today and I’m not feeling too well. 

I have two sets of business cards, envelopes, and letterhead sheets to design before tomorrow. I just want to rest.